~Azuya

アイアイ傘 (Ai Ai Gasa) came out YESTERDAY. I'm born in the wrong country I swurr LULZ.
shoot me plz. btw HAAAAY people I'm back to my irrelevant titlessss. xD

answering more meme/survey things because I'm extremely ecstatic about writing on actual things in life. OH FUDGELOL it feels like a Friday. I'm supposed to be studying for tests, HEEEHEE. Well. That's school. HAHA. I fail'd my first test EVER for this year, in literature. I won't get over that for a while. NUUUU.

Strips of Feeling

someone did this on their livejournal. I steal things, I do.

ひけん下さい・アズヤのエモショん・

・Azuya no EMOTION・

isn't the title sickly? xD I made the title myself since the actual one was just EMOTION. Which sounds more and more sickly the more I think about it. But that's what this is all about anyway, "EMOTION". I stole it from someone's blog. hurrhurr.

how often do you cry?
I don't get why people want to know this. xD So you know how many times I cry in a year, what now?
Anyway. There's no specific pattern to how or when I cry, I don't think so. The only thing I'm sure of is that I don't like crying in front of people, I really don't.

Does this make me come out so boyish? xD During school activities and gatherings, there is usually an activity that forces some sort of tear explosion or what not, I really hate it when I end up crying like everyone else. So at first I'd be fighting it back like ANYTHING. you know that really painful lump in your throat that forms when you fight it? lol. I sometimes mistake it for yawning. HAHA, I'm dense, I KNOOOW. Fighting it back, I'd get teary and what not and sometimes a tear would fall out of my eye by itself. And I'll be even more upset thinking, "WHO TOLD YOU, YOU COULD ROLL OUT?" or something childish like that. xD Crying in front of others is EMBARASSING. I'd cry while watching movies even, I cried for Monster's Inc. dear GOD~ I'm a mess.

But things like crying by myself for...personal. reasons. Whatever they may be. That doesn't happen unless, I don't know it's really piled up and accumulated in my brain. There are times I'd go a month without crying, and then at some point I'd be by myself and I'd get nostalgic or upset about something then I start crying. Somehow the whole TearThing just accumulates and then I'd "burst". this survey is embarrassing~

one time, I remember I was in bed trying to sleep, then I remembered something and I got frustrated and then remembering that I got nostalgic about something else related and it just added. I'm HOPELESS. XDDD

Another thing, I also cry when no one "understands me". sounds more and more emo doesn't it? lolno. I argue a lot with my 23-year-old brother and when we really can't meet and were both just yelling at each other, I end up wanting to cry. It's like, "WHY CANT YOU SEE MY POINT? WHY?" that sort of frustration. I don't get into physical fights, I debate and argue, because (a)I'm not a man. lol. (b)because I'm smart. *haha* THIS IS EMBARRASSING, NEXT QUESTION.

What things make you happy?

ah. I'm a bit of a sadist, ne. <-- to be said with a dead tone.
^ this is the first response that comes out in my head when I'm asked this, though I never say it aloud, and if I do its without the NE. I'm not stupid, lol. xD

So anyway, I really am sadistic, if I could be on tv doing gags, It'd definitely be sadist humor. I'm not specifically proud of this or anything, but when people hit themselves I find it UNDENIABLY FUNN--*shot*

Well, that's one side that makes me HAPPY, or sadistically satisfied mentally. lol. -if this was offensive material I apologize in advance-

Good music makes me happy. Most people find me weird when I say this, but I have no real genre of music that I particularly like. But I have genres I don't listen to at all. That's Reggae, HARDCORE PUNKMETALLIC WTF LOL STOP SCREAMING IN MY EARS, not too big on R&B, oldies that run too slow, ballads that have the same tune and the same kind of climactic chorus part..how do I explain that? just BALLADS, most of them, songs with erotic pr0nz in the lyrics.. I have a limit for that. , techno with no lyrics.

THE LIST GOES ON AND ON ACTUALLY. but if you were to ask me what I do listen to it's all mixed up. I like Alternative, Pop, General Rock, Oldies, techno w/ lyrics (*laughs*), J-Pop, J-Rock, Jazz, certain kinds of Bossa Nova, certain orchestal music. I say CERTAIN because I don't like all classical music, there are some that are really nice to listen to, so when I'm bored I flip to those. xD there are bossa nova songs that give me a head ache, can you believe? xD

Nothing beats songs with awesome lyrics. But it has to be under one of the genres I put up there. like I won't listen to a song that has nice lyrics but its reggae. I can't appreciate it. This is my preference, don't shoot meh. It's best when I can relate to the song and I can go, "Ah, I know, I know." or something with a familiar thing going it thats what I like~

I talk like an old man xD or an angsty man in his early 20s. I don't talk or sound my age or my gender. This is being mentally preset to an opposite end. It's WRONG. Is this what WRONGLY MATURED means? LMAO.

its different with J-Pop, though sometimes I can remotely translate several different phrases and sentences within a song, I lack hard in vocabulary so I'm a mess. When I listen to that it has to be a good beat and a good tune. xD

Good food makes me happy. After school I want to come home to fried dinner with a looooot of sauce, but it's never there~ lol I'm not matured wrongly, I just havent developed a mature brain yet, my way of talking is just...GENDER confused or something. Because after school I get really tired and I sleep. When I wake up I'd still want that saucy fried food that isnt there. AM I making sense right now? of course not.

Celebrities make me happy. No I mean when they act HUMAN. When they act like people, on talkshows or what not its like you become their equal. *just erase all the glamour background and stop thinking about how much you think that t-shirt costs* When they start talking about home or their family, or friends and it becomes funny, I become in a sense, HAPPY. NAME DROPPING on the other hand is where I draw the line.
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Ah..maybe I don't like celebrities that much after all. FEMALE celebrities definitely not. LOL.

...spending lunch period with my friends just cracking up together is the best though. xD Even when we try to study for tests during lunch period its a RIOT. Especially because one of my friends has all these exaggerated hand motions when she talks. LOL. FUNNY.

-i have grown lazy to continue this any further so please enjoy what is in it-

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yaaaaay. this concludes azuya no emtion. it really is just a 2 question thing, meant for long asnwers, dont go bitching on me. xD